A Queer Dilemma by T. M. Brown

If the theory is true that our formative years are what made us queers – what difference does that

make to us now? As we’re life long gays and set in our ways – I mean it’s not like thumb

sucking a habit that in time we will out grow. What difference does it make what made us gay

not straight – or if science finds conclusive proof that it’s in our genes, will abortion be more

in demand as a solution to save couples from not having unplanned – babies that would

otherwise grow up to be “Fairies – Sissies – Faggots – or Raging Queens”? Would you or I feel any

better if we could blame some ancestor – for the fact we’re not (real men) would that make us

feel great, or if it was offered to you now for free a pill or a course that would rid you of your

homosexuality – would you gladly accept it or would you pass on the chance to be (normal)

and straight? I have no idea what made me gay or queer – I’m just a poet but my view is

simply this, it took me most of my life “to come out of the closet” which was not an easy

choice – but if I cant live as a gay man I see no reason for me to exist. For my

acceptance of myself late in life to my regret – has “in my case at least” finally brought me

happiness, so being queer is no dilemma for me though others may now see me

differently – I’m just a person – full stop – “no better or worse than any other”. Trying to do

my best.

illustration by Tom Moore

T. M. Brown is Irelands G.D.P. aka Irelands Gay Dyspraxic Poet. He has been writing poems since at least 1976. Where he grew up it was seen as “sissy” to write poems – so he used to get his poems printed in the local paper, but no one knew it was him that wrote them. He also draws and has always been creative. He has been a campaigner for missing persons and missing children. He never imagined that he would find the courage to come out – let alone to have a poem on such a site as this. He admires people who are not afraid to make a stand and he hopes that whatever our sexuality our common humanity will make us all better people.
P.S. all his poems are for his missing sister Ellen.

Tom Moore started reading newspaper comics when they were little. They are dyslexic and like things which are short and punchy. They love how this kind of imagery becomes monumental in Pop Art. Although things have gotten mixed up for them now and they can’t help but see the grandness in Snoopy and the cuteness in Warhol. Tom Moore is also part of #TheGalleryProject.